i am a lone reed....

As I sat here for the last 30 seconds figuring out what I am going to blog about today due to peer pressure, the line from "you've got mail" popped into my head [my title]. Lately I have been pondering the happenings of this past 7 months. There were days when I could definately see God leading my life and directing me. But now, I honestly wonder. Why would God open a huge door 6 months ago only to leave me sitting. I know there is a reason, but why? I have been wondering about his plans for my life past Pakistan. I have been going over the dreams that I believe God has given me and trying to figure out how I can make them happen. So much of what I want to do requires some serrious financial backing to get started. I'm trying not to limit God in that area, cause I know that its so small to Him, but my finite mind just can't seem to get around his leadings for me. God gave me a vision of a program 3 years ago. I have since talked to two other individuals who have the same passions, desires and ideas as me. The problem is -- we are just poor girls with a dream. The good thing -- we have God on our side.

Anyways....its February now. That means that if I got my visa tomorrow I would not make it to Pakistan till the begining of March. The school year there ends in May. What a waste, or at least it feels like a waste. Its all part of God plan right?? I'm trying to be open to staying another year, but I just want to get on with other things at the same time. It was no problem for me to commit to this year, considering I didn't have any plans, but next year I'd like to be moving more towards my life goals.

What should I do?
I'm open to suggestions.